I decided to share this because I believe there are people who will relate to it and get healing too and also as a way to keep me accountable by continuing the process of adjustment.
I generally consider myself to be a person of strong faith, quite frankly nothing ever really moves me and by nothing I mean things that will usually cause people to panic. I’ve always just known and trusted God with my life and known that He is in control so when certain events occur that threaten to shake my faith, I have that “God is in control” mindset and I am not shaken.
Well recently, God has pointed out an area in my life where I haven’t given Him total control and that is my “emotions”. So while I may not be moved by major happenings I am usually moved by seemingly minor ones e.g. the tone of a message sent to me, or the kind of response I get from a friend or family. I would literally start crying and even move on to thinking and sometimes saying that they don’t really care about me because of just that. That whole scenario has the possibility to spoil my entire day. I would be so emotional and sad until it is fully addressed and we’ve gotten some sort of resolve (which would usually include an apology and words of affirmation to rebut my earlier stance on their lack of expressed care)… And oh don’t you dare call me sensitive or highly emotional, that also gets me riled up LOL…do you get where I am going with this?
I do understand that being pregnant comes with its emotional challenges (that people rarely talk about, post for another day), especially because my hormones are on overdrive. In fact this season just brought out things in me that I never knew existed or should I say in that degree. I know that this has caused everything to be heightened but I have refused to make excuses and so I’m letting God in. You get the gist…
So the point of this blog isn’t to bore you with my shortcomings or emotional instability but to encourage someone out there to allow God work in you like He’s doing with me. I remember praying that God should shine His light on areas of my life that need adjustment and alignment or even total reconstruction and He’s been doing that. It also occurred to me, because I’m passionate about the people or things I love, I almost always expect they should be the same way too. However, I’m learning that this puts unnecessary pressure on the relationship and makes them uncomfortable around me. So my passion and how it is expressed has to be directed by God Himself who made me that way.
It is so difficult sometimes to see your “good self” as having issues that need fixing but that’s why Christ died, to give us access to perfection. He didn’t come to fix those who are whole but those who are broken and if I’m being honest with myself today we all have areas in our lives that are broken and we need Jesus to fix us.
Sometimes I get so ashamed that I still have to deal with this emotional higgi hagga because I should “know better” by now. I’m like “but God I mentor some people, how can they know that I still struggle with my emotions?” But God says “it is good that they know that you have this weakness, because it is in this that my strength is made perfect. So Rest! Let them know how weak you are so they appreciate how strong your Father is”. So don’t be hard on yourself when you’re going through the stages of pruning and adjustment, it is for a greater good.
Part of the reason I never got this resolved was because I never admitted to being highly emotional or even when I did, I attributed it to “normal”. It wasn’t until I started to lose my peace that I realized that this could actually be a problem. But the truth is God is patient with us in our individual/unique learning process (as long as we are learning and growing).
Please don’t get me wrong, emotions aren’t a bad thing in and of themselves because even God expressed emotions and we are created in His likeness and image. The problem is that sometimes our emotions are contaminated by the sinful nature and that’s why we need to surrender it to God for Him to control. Suppressing emotion is not necessarily Godly and so also is expressing false emotions. Submitting our emotions to God is allowing the Holy Spirit to lead our emotions.
So it is important for us to walk in the Spirit so that we can express Godly emotions, as they result in Godly actions. When we express the wrong emotions, they are usually followed by ungodly actions. Thus, it is vital to identify these negative emotions and give it to God before it results into unrighteous actions. God is more than able to make us become emotionally mature. Plus, people will often tell you to build a thicker skin, its not about “building a thicker skin”, because this skin isn’t getting any thicker than it is. It is about developing a robust spirit, a fruitful spirit that is full of the wisdom of God, more conscious of Gods presence and His word, knowing how to respond to situations appropriately.
It is also important to spend time with God, meditating on His word and living by His principles. These help in steering our emotions in the right direction. I’ve realized that I’m more prone to being highly emotional when I haven’t spent time with God, as I should (that’s just me). He is the source of my joy and strength and in His presence there’s fullness of Joy, so when my joy isn’t full I become easily offended and highly emotional, which means I’ve neglected His presence. So it all goes back to allowing God fill us up with Himself so that we end up pouring out more of Him instead of pouring out the wrong emotions. Emotions can sometimes deter us from experiencing God in His fullness and destabilize our walk with God so it is important to have it in check.
I would also add that it is important to have people (believers) who genuinely love and care for you around you if this is something you struggle with or whatever it is you struggle with honestly. Have them pray for you and with you. Let them know that this is a weakness and you know that with their encouragement, you can overcome this even faster. Thank God for my understanding and supportive husband. Don’t be ashamed to do this because there’s power in unity.
So I PLEDGE to give my life to God over again and make Him LORD over my emotions just as He is Lord over every other area of my life. Not that they wont exist (after all Jesus wept) but that they will be steered by Him and Him alone. Yes, I just may shed a tear or two when watching that romantic movie or when hubby does a sweet gesture but that’s still okay and does no harm to my over all well being and those around me neither does it invalidate my witness.
Make a Pledge to God today, it could be regarding any area of your life. You can pledge to live in purity, forgiveness, love, etc whatever it is that has been a stronghold. Pledge to surrender that area to God today in your heart and in your actions and watch Him transform you.
Cheers to becoming greater versions of ourselves in this New Year and beyond by reflecting the nature of Christ in all that we do.
Colossians 3:15 Let the peace of Christ [the inner calm of one who walks daily with Him] be the controlling factor in your hearts [deciding and settling questions that arise]. To this peace indeed you were called as members in one body [of believers]. And be thankful [to God always].
Proverbs 15:13 A merry heart maketh a cheerful countenance: but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.
Galatians 5:16 I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh
Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance.
2 Corinthians 10:5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ